Balancing Bliss

it's the little things...

before i go any further, know that i am still spending much of my days on the couch being ill. since being so sick i appreciate the little joys in life. i thought i did before but now i surrender to them.

princess forts made with fairy quilts, hung by sparkling jewelery box and a bird cage;

a big brother  who will still play with little sister;

 

the hope i hold onto that i will create scrapbook pages again one day;

 

today i hit the 12 week mark of pregnancy. how i long to feel healthy and whole again. i've been wanting apple pie for weeks but haven't had the oomph in me to peel apples. tonight i did, with the help of a special little baker named luci. these little things....moments that happened over weeks, i hold dear.

that time of year again....

one of the sades favorite annual events was this weekend....AG FEST. this was our 5th year. i wasn't totally prepared, normally i make them look cute for the 100+ photos i take but i didn't even bring a camera this time. the fact that i trucked myself all about was enough. i was present. my archives of the past 2 aprils will have photos.

we planted pumpkin and corn. milked a fake cow. rode a wagon pulled by horses. pet baby pigs, cows, goats, chickens, and bunnies. saw how wheat is raised, cut, made into flower, and then ate pancakes from it. planted beans in wet cotton balls, put them in tiny bags and wore them around our neck with yarn. (i realized later at the outback that people we looking at us funny....we probably looked like we had little cocaine bags....sigh) and luci got to see her beloved SPIKE.  (for the love of links and my inability to make one...just look into my archives of april 2009)

"can i paint after the baby is born?" - luci

apparently our children think we will be 'normal' again after the baby is born. maybe i should make a calendar to show the first trimester and how close we are to being better. so while i had a couple good hours in me today, i gave them to her. i love my little artist...

missing...

right now my house has been ignored....

papers from my kids school are adding up, including getting them registered for next year...

our fridge is sad...

the table has a sewing machine on it from 3 days ago when i ATTEMPTED to sew on all the patches to their cubscout uniforms....why now? because they were invited by the mayor to say pledge of allegence at city hall...thought they might like to wear their earned patches...

my bed hasn't been made in a month...

the planting i was SO INTO was put on hold and they sit in their nursery pots where i hope to plant them one day...

the dogs need a bath...and brushed...

if the laundry gets done, it is left folded on the table hoping someone will put it away... or will be found the next day by little people  while getting ready for school....

luci has been dressing herself...i USED to think she had style....

i watch so much t.v right now that i know things i don't want to know....like who is getting divorced,  how many duggars like pickles, and what paula is cooking up ...know it will contain butter...

i leave the house maybe once a week...so i only put on 'real clothes' once a week...

and as you have noticed...my blogging is as sad as my fridge...

                                                                  why?  

    because for the last 10wks i have been growing a little human being!

it's exhausting......

i've never been so ill ....although my 1mo bout with vertigo last year almost mirrors it....

everything smells to me and rarely smells good. brian has had to eat on the deck more than once because i don't like what he is eating. steam makes everything smell worse. especially oatmeal. i can smell the metal on my razor just by going into the bathroom. the dogs make me ill. i am most grateful i'm not changing diapers this time around.

food is not my friend. even if it's tasting good (which is rare) it will come back to get me within 20min. tops. we might name the kid elmer because i am basically only feeding it glue. white flour has been good to me. i've lost 4lbs.

the couch IS my friend ....along with friends blanket and remote. this is where i spend most of my day.

soon the first trimester will be all over and life will look good again...but right now i am missing ME. the house is missing me, my husband misses me, the kids miss me.....crafting is sobbing it misses me so bad...i do alot around here and you can tell when momma is down. luckily i have a wonderful husband who does so much...

give me a few weeks and i will be back to eating chocolate, oh how i miss thee...., crafting up something, taking the kids somewhere fun, blogging it,  being a wife not another dependant, and just being me......

it's a nephew!....

 grey august was born a little after 2am weight 8lbs 9oz.... that is all the info. i have....

the world....

is welcoming my little niece or nephew today!

praying for an easy delivery for jen today.

his day....

this weekend our little boy blu was baptized. he has such an old soul....such a spiritual little thing since he was tiny...i have no worries. don't get me wrong, the thought of that boy driving away in a car terrifies me but spiritually....i know he is ready.

our attempt of a family picture with 16 people gathering for dinner in a bad lit room....why did i attempt?!

but it was eli blu's day and he looked great in it...so there it is.

we were very blessed to have so many little cousins running and playing around the house today. i've always wanted my kids to have that. grateful for that little boy and this day.

as promised...

it was a easy mellow celebration this year. the reason there are no great kid photos is because the boys had their eyes closed, were in movement, or making fun of the 'easter bunny'. luci was adorable but confused...she dressed up for easter as the new barbie musketeer. ? .

happy easter

when you have little kids, holidays tend to turn into the magical little moments of easter bunnies and santa clause. although i eat that all up because those years will be gone so quickly i also look forward to the time we will have a little more reverence to worship.

i am so grateful to have faith and know that HE LIVES.

easter basket pictures to follow..dinner is in the works....