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it feels like i have been home alone for weeks now...it's been a little over 48hrs...
there has been a constant desire to ;
there has been this tiny voice in the back of my head saying 'sleep...rest..' ....so that is what i have been doing. i did clean up the area and get everything ready for when i am feeling better. oh how i will appreciate feeling better too. i even went as far as to build a fire and watch gone with the wind.... that is a loooong movie.
the only other thing i accomplished with all of this time on my hands;
what is better than getting it all out? putting it all away! feels so good. every year. our tree was out by lunch on CHRISTmas day....it had been dead for weeks....someone thought we flocked it...nope just burned our wood stove a little too much to get a tree on thanksgiving i guess. lesson learned. all the holiday throws have been washed and dried, holiday tins are free of cookies, watched elf for the last time this year, going going GONE.
ready to call it a new year. feel healthy. work on this house of ours. dream our dreams and create.
brian called a little while ago to tell me to save my appetite.... and i knew where he was! krispy kreme. oh how i love that man. and how i miss all four of those people in my life.
these two;
oh how i miss that girl of mine. of course the dogs don't talk back and i can't put luci in a crate.... doesn't matter...i miss my girl. i might even miss those two little boys of mine also.....sigh... I-5 can't bring them home fast enough...
i went to bed to silence and woke up to it also. it's something every mother wishes for but it's overrated.
so i will be playing one of my new but yet so old vinyls on this....thanks to my husband who listened to my wants of hearing crackle with the greats.
brian went ahead with our CHRISTmas vacation plans and took the kids to seattle. i've been so sick. my muscles hurt....my skin hurts....i hurt. so i stayed behind. i don't think i've ever been away from all 3 kids except when i am gone, it's a little strange. wishing i felt a little better to enjoy this alone time. yet so grateful to have this time to REST.
more pics of kids to come....
taking in the imperfections of this;
and loving it anyways...
this bear was mine when i was a little girl. i do believe my grandparents got it for us. it plays music and lights up to the tunes...funny how something like that just floods the memory of good childhood memories...it's even better to see it on this side of the magic happening...
i was pondering how fleeting CHRISTmas is. you plan, create, celebrate, cook for, decorate, shop, and just about the time you are about to lose your mind; it's over. at the same time i was thinking about keeping my card address list in my supplies, plan a card, and make 50 of them in jan. for next year. maybe think of a family to buy or create for throughout the year....and then it hit me...what would i DO during nov/dec of next year? that IS what we look forward to when we think of CHRISTmas. it just put me straight into the gratefulness of the present and living the moment. stamped 50 cards and put a pic of the kiddos in each one.
and one more thing celebrated. ahhhhhh.
broke my heart and broke into laughter all at the same time! yes we had a talk....but the funny thing is; can you only see the teachers face?! love that kid.
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