right now i'm doing just that... we have had some of the hardest days around here in years.. ok, minus the whole 'she almost killed me physically and then didn't sleep for a year'..that will always trump it all.(but i love you sweet baby girl) truly though, we are really struggling.
collaberative parenting classes, actually attending middle school classes with my 13yr old, counseling meetings, teacher meetings, lets get this next boy ready for middle school, repeat, with our everyday real life thrown in there too.
it's about more than i can handle right now. then i remember that in order to grow we must be stretched to an uncomfortable limit before it happens. so i pray... and i hand it over to the Lord.. then i do this silly thing, i try to say "yep, this is now doable for me.. thanks, i will take this back and fix it." that is not how it works. so i am humbled and give it back to Him. sigh...
in the eye of the storm (usually 4pm after all the above and right before dinner and next round of homework, scouts, fighting starts) you can find me LOVING EVERYONE THROUGH SUGAR... healthy? nope.. still going to do it because i'm sharing my love the way their momma shows love? yep. i've been baking snickerdoodles like crazy. filling up tupperware and fancy candy dishes. it helps me, it's nice for the girl who isn't involved, it's there the next morning when i can no longer think of what a healthy snack would be for lil naughty (can we say spoiled?)... so it's a win. ironically not for the boy who is 75% of those issues. he doesn't like snickerdoodles.... ooops. new cookie next week.
just so grateful for what i get to do. i am HOME. i am not home physically all the time. you can find me at my therapist's office, the school office, the social studies room, the really hard to go to parenting class but damnt i'm so glad i went this week class, or in my van... from school to school. BUT, i am able to do this because i am HOME.