missing...

missing the guy who does so much around here... i knew that ... but now i REALLY know that..

 he goes to the store or picks up the pizza.. small job? sure.. but it's a huge deal if you are in pj's and means loading 4 kids to go..

7th grade advanced math? are you freaking joking? i don't want gaven to know i don't have a clue and i feel like i'm a student who wants to cry because i'm so lost i don't know what to do.. but he does..

i miss the guy who steps in and redirects everyone when mom is about to lose it so i can power through whatever i am doing..

i need his presence to stop my mouth from spewing naughty words when he isn't there to step in..

he is quiet.. he is strong.. he is sensitive..

he is missed...